How are you?

This is usually how you start a conversation right?

Sometimes you really don't care if they're good, happy, sad, or etc.

Sometimes you just wanna ask them something later on so you don't even care

what they're gonna reply to that question.



And sometimes when they do say they're not good,

the people are just like.. great, i gotta stand here and listen now..



Saying, "fine" is a habit too. Instead of really thinking what you feel,

or you don't wanna tell the person, you just say, "fine" when really,

you are having a bad day, or depressed about some random situation.



Me?

I lie everyday.

When people ask me, "how are you?" I hesitate, but say "I'm fine" afterwards,

and give them a slight smile. If they really care, I don't wanna ruin their mood

or have to waste their time because I'm blabbing on about my problems.



In the future, I wanna someday say, "I'm not ok" and hope that they'll actually care.



But right now, I don't wanna say the truth. 'cause when I do say, "I'm not ok" it hurts.

'cause I'll remind myself that I have no satisfaction in life.



I'm not the only one.. right?

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